A small smile of comprehension,
and a bit of a remorse,
once I sense your deception
and things turn worse...

At least, that's how I think
that it will be when I tell you this...
It might send you on a brink
and sink your heart on an abyss...

I've lost count and don't care.
"The more, the merrier," I always say.
But could you really bear
if things had to be this way?

A few friends here and there,
with so many opinions and thoughts
and an endless amount of words to share...
plus a bout that is to be fought...

No one is more important than another,
but some have snuck emotion and feeling on all this.
I'm quite sure this will be a bother
but what I love is what you miss.

You're amazing and sweet
but you're just not it.
He is the one I wanted to meet
so don't keep your hopes lit.

Forgive me, please,
I just couldn't help it;
but I can read you with so much ease
and I understand I might have hurt you a bit.

My eyes can see what you hide,
though nothing serious or bad,
it simply doesn't appeal to my side.
Sorry if this makes you sad...

It was never my intention
to be that kind of thief
whose name's mention
leaves you without relief.

I didn't even know...
that I had stolen.
I give it back to you after a blow
that has left it broken.

I couldn't foresee it in time!
I'm truly sorry, please understand.
Compared to a nickel you're a dime,
but this is where I stand...

This is where I leave...
I didn't try to steal your heart.
Through the emotions that I weave
I know that this seems hard.

But you're kind,
so nice, and innocent.
Don't stay in a bind;
just follow a different path from where I went.

You probably don't deserve me, anyway.
I only figured the damage and part of the pain,
but didn't thought it could be that way.
Now, I leave you, but remember what you have to gain!

Part of me still resides.
Though my heart has been won,
I'm still your friend, waiting at the sides.
Here to help you move on.

I proved to be a major challenge, overall.
Despite our silly rivalry, a wonderful frienship.
I can keep that; I meant it all.
I meant all the things I said; not a lie escaped this lip.

That's exactly how it is:
I am just your friend.
It was always like this
and it'll never change until the end.

If you still don't comprehend...
Here it comes again:
I care for you only as a friend,
with nothing else to gain.

Here's your heart.
Someone stole mine.
I know it's hard;
but someone else makes me shine.

Tears flow out...
My heart cries...
Inside there is a bout
that takes me to the skies.

I feel emotions surging,
my heart beating fast.
My love's purging
and becoming vast...

What have you done?
I feel so ill yet right.
And whenever you're gone
I cry for you at night.

A chill strikes my inside.
I feel so excited yet afraid...
I feel like if I need to hide,
but also to stay where I laid...

It's all so confusing...
and so very uncomplicated.
In my heart, my love is moving
because you have me captivated.

Your words, your sweetness!
You've let me enchanted.
I find no darkness,
just the light you've granted.

Yet my soul has a cry...
One for you to hear...
"Why does it cry? Why?"
Because you're not near.

It's all mixed up, all of it, all...
My thoughts aren't clear.
For one reason, overall...
Like I said: you're not near...

I miss you so much!
Please come back.
I can't tolerate such... such...
loneliness and it's your love what I lack!

I remember you saying it,
"I love you! I love you!"
And when you did, I felt lit,
and now I say, "I love you, too."

And I do; it's true and real.
I won't lie, not ever.
It's a done deal;
I'll love you forever.

I want to say more.
I think of you at all times.
Without you, I'm sore
and with you, my happiness chimes.

Your eyes are so deep,
and your smile so sincere.
And like I said, I weep
because you're still not here.

And I could cry all day,
knowing you're not returning.
And all I can say
is that a storm inside me is churning...

I'm so very sorry.
For anything I did,
or if I made you worry...
Because I feel so horrid...

I hope you're safe and sound...
I wish for your wellfare.
Even if I can no longer see you around,
I'll remember the bond that we share...

But it can't be like that, it cannot.
I don't want it to.
I care for you a lot...
Can't you see that I love you, too?

And thus I have arrived
to the safe haven of your arms.
I know not how I survived
nor how I went on without alarm;
or perhaps in me there was
a simple will to see your eyes,
and though dying I am, alas
I can feel our bond and see the ties.

Starving, am I
of such caresses and delight,
and while I stand by,
I dream of that last night...

Perhaps my heart wept
when, that night, we kissed,
for I never again slept,
for it was you I missed.
If you had seen me between tears,
with my soul in one hand,
with a small, bloody smear
and hoping to land.

Through bitter sea,
and many a dream,
I sailed with a plea
and a heart with a seam.

Seemed endless, indeed,
that far journey, that trip.
But once I finished that deed,
at the top, at the very tip
of that mountain, I'd be
in this land, just you and me.

The pieces of my heart
They laid on the ground
And it hit me so hard
That the pain inside seemed to abound

So I tried to ignore
But that wasn't so
Something inside implored
To end all that woe

I wanted to be strong
But I could not
Instead I did something wrong
And left my throat in a knot

What did I do?
It was a paper, you see
I wrote what was true
That I loved him more than I loved me

And then fire!
Yes, burn!
It was an evil desire
That in me had born

I burned the paper with fire
Wanted to watch the love singe
But I got caught in the pyre
Before I could even flinch

I wanted to scream
I wanted to cry
But it was late for the dream
And I watched the ashes fly

"Never again," said I
"Will I suffer like this."
So I will never turn blind
And live life so bliss

From the things I'll miss, I think I'd start
With where I dreamed to reside, within your heart.
For here I stand before my own,
And it's so easy to see it lost its glow;
The lines are still there, faded,
Lines of the dreams I had there,
Dreams that I allowed to become jaded;
There were many of them I threw out
And replaced with entirely new dreams.
Dreams of only you and me about,
As the moon smiles and gleams
Upon us only, you and me.
And over there, piled up
The dreams I never dared give up
But that I still rearranged--
Either that or completely changed--
To accommodate you in
So that nothing would come between.
I look upon the spots
I reserved for you and us,
Now empty and lone
With a love so forgone.
I rid my heart of those new dreams and aspirations
As quickly as they expired
But how do you rid the mind of your inspiration
That once set your drive on fire?
You don't, I suppose...
And that's what I miss most:
The dreams that never were
And their memories, so preserved,
Where not even the Devil can corrupt,
And only God may usurp.
The illusions, the hopes, the little things
That transformed my life
In such a way I could hear the angel wings,
But now there's only strife;
Strife, lining up the empty spaces
That I reserved just for you and me...
What would have been, in my life, the aces,
But ultimately, was never meant to be.