clintrussell

Mar 28 2008, 10:47 PM

I could live with it.

1) I like my family and consider them friends anyway.
2) I feel theres no need to fight. Peace a love and all that.
3) I don't like people.

Juke Box Hero

Mar 29 2008, 03:25 AM

Am I the only one who doesn't have a doctor that stuffs pills down my throat?

If they ever assign you a med that you don't like, "forget" to take it.

Gristle

Mar 28 2008, 06:58 PM

Like any of you would care, but here goes anyways.

I was pretty average when I was little, up until grades two and three when everybody started getting into "good" stuff. Swearing went around, typical kid stuff basically. lol
When I was born the doctors wanted to drug me up with all kinds of "adult meds". All cause they told my mum I had autism, which I don't at all. It was an unnofficial diagnosis at the time and was just starting to become known...only around doctors that is. The only reason the doctors did was just to give out their meds like typical American doctors. This is Canada for christs sake! Why the hell would they try to get rid of their meds? The only excuse they came up with for trying to stuff me with pills, was that I liked to flap my arms alot. <_< The whole arms thing stopped when I was like 2 years old. So whats the big deal?
How this is tied into my kid life? I'm getting there. My mum took it deep into herself (the diagnosis). Whenever I would get into a typical fight at school (which everyone does) she would take me to see "specialists." Then she would ground me for two whole months. Even if she didn't label me, I would have still gotten homeschooled and completely shielded from being a normal kid like everyone else. I don't know why she stuck with the label, I mean, it was kinda pointless. Because both her and my dad just used it as an excuse to blindfold me. For years I actually thought I did not function well with people, when really it was perfectly normal for that age! I didn't have many friends because I could not be friends with "cool kids" BECAUSE my parents would **Bleep** to me that they were "bad" and "unmoral" and "religously incorrect" or something. Yes they are religious. My dad not so much though..

Back to the school thing. They pulled me out of school in early grade 3 and I was homeschooled until grade 5. Then I was pulled out again in grade 5, I'll tell you the reason why. I was forced to be weak and "a jesus boy". I was forced to not defend myself, to be morally good and STUPID! Deep down inside I knew that. So what happened after awhile of some kids beating me up, I literally lost it during Jim. Beat him hard until he was on the floor crying his eyes out. He respected me deeply after that, and I was happy. But my mum went absolutely nuts! She called specialists to try and get me "back to the moral and spiritual way." Also, the sudden release of bottled up rage made me very depressed, and I suddenly found myself not wanting to do school at all... I've always been one to feel other peoples pain easily... It was confusing times too.
I've gotten over it now, because I can easily gain respect and defend myself if someone wants to beat me up. But for a long time after that event in grade 5, I was blindfolded and frowned upon for being what every other kid is like...

How would you feel if you could not have friends...to just be a kid...to just have fun...to just live...How would it feel for you, if you were forced to be submissive and weak? And not out just having fun and living life...?

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