Jan 30
Cold Dead Stare
You talk like you’re the guru
Knower of all things
Vast and endless knowledge
And a pair of feathered wings
They listen so intently
They hang on every word
They whisper soft and gently
Satisfied with what was heard
You tell them every secret
Answer all questions of life
Filling them full of false hope
Empty hallow advice
You lead them to the dark abyss
But you don’t even care
All their eyes are on you now
Each and every cold dead stare
Jan 27
Empty Skin
Empty skin, I can’t stand up
My legs comprised of a cotton coating
I’d love to say that I’ve had enough
But I know that life just keeps on going
With each day I struggle, to stay sane
Endless pain keeps rotting the brain
There’s no way out of this prison, commissioned and envisioned
To keep me imprisoned, so that I may be slain
I want, to feel no longer
Please rip my nerves right out of my skin
Hang them all upon the walls like decoration
Held in place by rusty thumb tacks and pins
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Friends are what keep me going, but are also able to tear me apart. Not a fun power I give such people, that's why only a handful have this ability. This had nothing to do with the above writing.
Dec 14
The Happy Hole
I climb, fashioning a ladder out of my memories.
Each rung constantly reminding me
Where I've been
Where and when.
I climb, faster and faster through each gap
Growing wider and wider, deeper and deeper
The top is the end. The happy happy
The bottom is the end, from where I began
Where I've been
Where and when.
A pleasurable pain sweeps over my being with each advancement
It takes me by surprised, and yet, I feel as though I've planned it
I am near it. The top. The happy happy I've dreamed of.
Making new rungs as I go
I battle my way to the final rung
I climb over the ledge, over the top
I find myself at the bottom of the happy hole
Where I've been
Where and when.
I record my progress, the fifth tally
I've climbed this ladder once per tally
It always brings me back again
And always grows taller
Always more painful to climb
But never gets me out of my happy hole
My miserable happy hole
Where I've been
Where and when.
Dec 6
Cardboard Boat
I sail across the seven seas
In a cardboard boat made just for me!
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Why do I try? Why? I don't get it. I hate my heart, it's an evil tool of total self distruction. I hate my tears, they are reminders of the pain confusion brings. I love, and I hate it. My emotions have ridden a roller coaster of unexplored territory, I've spent the last week in a dream from which I may never wake up.
Let me out.
I'm chained into this, and I've lost the key. I feel empty, yet fuller than I've ever felt. Help me
Nov 7
This is that, or I'm the Cheese Maker.
Popsicle
Melting upon the blades present only at the proper times
Blades penetrate everyone
Once
Tears
Forming a waterfall cross great distances
Evaporating before reaching the end
Or is evaporation the end?
Telephone
Connecting lands
Bridge
Connecting lands
What makes them different?
Nov 4
Loops
Here goes the start of the end
A puddle evaporating
Come take my hand and walk with me friend
The world Separating
2012, were the visions true?
Collapsed Civilizations
Well get through this, just me and you
Evil Memorization
Look with your mind, not your eyes
Erie familiarization
Watch as the fire explodes cross the skies
Ideological Penetration
The sky is falling, the world is crashing
Burning, yearning for a saving grace
Something come along and save this place
Before these tears drown my melting face!
Explosions and erosion
Standing frozen
When you open your eyes
Realize
The world is fine
For it is not earth, but I who is dying
You find
Your friend, dying on the inside
Your hand, still tight to mine.
Nov 2
Modest Mouse in my Not So Modest House
Anyone listen to Modest Mouse? I'm starting to. They make my ears tingle a pleasant tingle, and make me smile an appealing smile!
Lalalalala
No..... I have nothing important to say. Goodbye
Oct 31
Clamshells and my self distruction
Are you reading this expecting me to talk about my life? Are you reading this expecting some sort of awesome story?
Let me tell you this, all of my posts are Mind F***s..... senseless words sewn together into a perfect tapestry. Each post is my mind, raw and pure, usually poetic to start, than contemplative to finish. I don't write to amuse you, I don't write to inform you, I write to confuse you. Just kidding. I write to satisfy my needs of venting my thoughts. But venting them to myself doesn't work, it keeps them confined inside my mind. The thirst is only quenched when I vent the thoughts to an audience, an audience who will look at my thoughts and think me to be a mad man.
STOP TRYING TO PRY INTO MY MIND!
To me, the people that matter are the only matter that matters. All the other matter doesn't matter, matter of fact I could do without excess matter. I don't want the disappearance of matter, I just don't think it matters to concern myself personally with all the extra matter. Awww... what's the matter?
I want to float. Upside down preferably.
I'm sad more than I'm happy, and I'm indifferent more than most. My life is a downward spiraling bliss.
Post a comment if you have absolutely nothing to say.
Oct 31
Mystifying McDonalds Napkins
"I'd Like To Think I Take Dictation From Something Big And Evasive, That I've Yet To See The Face Of..." -Yoni Wolf
Sour faced
Out of place
But forever on a chase
I see the heart of the wicked plastered upon your eyes
You blanket yourself in all of your beautiful lies
Guys and gals, friends and pals, let's all smile tonight
For this is the hour that madness takes flight
Breathing
Water
Without them we die.
Why?
Why does a mess of cells cause me to think? And to feel? The brain is a mess of cells, a perfect mess. The heart pumps blood, the emotional heart lives in our brains. Or, lives in our souls. Our souls are works of fiction according to those afraid to think beyond the brain. Our brains are limited, also according to those who are afraid to think beyond the brain. They fail to think about how our minds can't think about other things that may exist within us.
"You're a beautiful and violent word" -Yoni Wolf
Oct 30
Random Thoughts of a nothing spider
Shelter me among the masses whom appear at the other end of my glasses.
I wear obscure rags to blend in, sun glasses serve as hall passes.
They try to mold me into something I should not be,
Little do they know, I hold life's key, gripped tightly.
I understand what most folks think does not exist.
I understand life, and it's tormenting bliss.
Why Me? Why You? Why Us? Why He? Why She? Discuss
With me the reason that you and I exist.
Why I stand here, clear in sight, and you diss appeared in the mist.
As you read though this and ask yourself the simple question, 'why?',
Ask yourself one more thing, do you belong in the sky?
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Love. Love love love. A word I love, is love. A word I hate is love. But I don't love to hate love, I hate to hate love. I hate hating love. But two negatives cancel each other out, wipe each other off the face of the earth. A sad thing for two negatives to do, but sometimes a lot of hate will cause that to happen.
So I hate Hating love.... hate and hating are cancelled out....
I Hate Hating Love = I love. True..... I do.... and yet I hate. I hate and I love, but I love more than I hate. But what is love? Baby, don't hurt me...... baby's are violent creatures.... and this one wants to hurt me.
Love, is it as powerful as we say? I love that new dress, I love to eat... don't you just love how hilarious that show is?
I love you. Do you love me? I will love you forever..... just like I love Queen. Hm? Eh?
I love you man! I love what you do for me, you are the greatest! ONE LOVE!
What the world needs now, is love, sweet love.
LoI'Mve......... translation? I'm In love. Get it? Neither do I......
I think we need to be more clear on our definition of love, and the power it holds. It really is an all across the board word.
LoYou'reve....... Translation? GIBBERISH!
Thoughts?
 3:20 AM Jul 25
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