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There's nothing much you shouldn't know. I'm currently the local Queen of this joint, but a casual one; I'll probably be discussing the insignificant, yet finer side of Sonic games while occasionally kicking Jimmy in the head with a spiked boot when he calls Johnny a bad name. Now go on and read the one or two entries I may post for this thing. I crave the attention.

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Sep 25

Emo-Ness Time!

xD Okay, I promise that this blog isn't going to be a festival of "dahkness", even though I've recently left out some good happenings because of rampant laziness. But every now and then, you need to take a moment and analyze your experiences to figure out where you're at and which blinker to turn on without confusing the hell out of the people around you even further.

In short, what I want to do is to call into question my personal compatibility with this job and board. After all, I seem to be one of the few, if only persons of power who constantly worry about this thing, possibly because I'm a tragic perfectionist. I crave to be right and have good judgement not only because the few times I am right serve to justify my existence a little more, but that's because that's what an administrative position requires and lately it seems like I've more often than not been in the wrong. For some strange reason, I've been so antagonistic, initiating arguments that either I could not win (I apologize for not owning up publically, Yvette, but I commend and further respect you for your knowledge concerning politics and history <3) or my authority's been called into serious question.

Sure, you can say it's only two incidents, but perhaps these two incidents are a blatant harbinger that I'm eventually going to collapse under this terrible balancing act of responsibility and mingling. After all, when you're a regular member, fleeing or being a jerk simply makes you a douche. When you're a mod or admin, fleeing or being a jerk makes you a douche with power which is something to be questioned, watched, and ultimately judged and perhaps put on a chopping block. After all, I am partly responsible for this board's welfare, and if I'm unfit for the position then how did I even get here in the first place? In fact, is all of this reluctance I have to do the job a reason why I feel I'm being such an evil lil' S.O.B nowadays?

Bah, I'll let you decide that for yourself as my whinging mojo is currently fading. I suppose that these feelings and questions are ones that a few other people in charge have naturally felt, so maybe some good will come from this later on. I have reminded myself to weigh my options better so this doesn't happen and the two of you that read this don't have to suffer through my infernal crying. Besides, things have been looking up. I'd tell you, but then I'd have to kill you. You'll just have to wait and see what's coming....
Posted Sep 24 2008, 10:29 PM · 4 comments
  1. Comment by Gale, Sep 30 2008, 12:52 PM
    I suddenly feel enlightened. c:
  2. Comment by The Shadow Tweaker, Jan 2 2009, 03:13 PM
    For what its worth, I think your doing a great job. Even though I'm not a 'consistently active member' *shrugs*.
  3. Comment by Neo MetallixPosted Image, Jan 11 2009, 09:24 PM
    Lol, this is kind of old, but... Well, you're doing it just fine and now I'm here to take over seeing as you're not going to be on as often.
  4. Comment by Krieg the Psycho, Apr 11 2009, 07:31 PM
    How can you be an S.O.B. if you're a girl? :D *smacked*
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